i thought i was a stronger young man
i thought i could take setbacks easier
i thought i can still move on with a genuine smile
i thought i could hide it all in
but no

it turned out that im getting weaker
it turned out that im even more crushed
it turned out that sometimes i cant even fake a smile to show
and pretend
it turned out that i cant hide them feelings in anymore
and just start crying at random times of the day, w or w/o friends around
i cant believe i let my siblings see me cry last night
they havent seen me cry in like, years .
and its not as if people close to me cant tell
whether my eyes are watery because i either yawned or teared.

i just cant pretend anymore.
its getting just too hard .
maybe, like ive always said,
maybe time will heal.
but yet again also, i doubt it'll be anytime soon ..

now life seriously has lost its colours