they say if you see only one star in the clear dark sky,
you can make a wish upon it.
but before you do,
you need to say/sing

" star light
star bright
the only star i see tonight
wish i may
wish i might
have this wish i wish tonight .
i wish.. "

but maybe it was a satelite that i wished upon yesterday
nothing is coming out from the wish i made,
nothing .
or maybe wishes on a star just don't come true.. ?

my heart used to like a view so beautiful
it let me see the rich colours reviving in my life
i really thought everything was just turning out fine
& that i can finally feel so happy w/o having to worry so much
but i was wrong,
so wrong .

it was only temporary,
the shorter type of temporary .
it hasn't ended .
the pain and sour still lingers

i know time will heal
but i dont know how long it will take
for everyday i think about it
and it just affects my mood
im sure im not the only one facing this right now
and when i go all quiet,
and need space from everyone else around me
i think even more .

and im just lost now
nothing good would come out from anything i do right now
either way, it wont help .
maybe even make things worse, for all i know

i should start listening to

gwen, elena and the voice that speaks from deep inside my heart

" time is the only thing that can make it better
give yourself and everyone else around you time and space
and maybe, just maybe
things will just turn out for the better . "

and so all i can do now is that
and keep on wishing upon lonely stars at night if i see them .

and there's another way of making a wish
i dont know if it comes true.
when i was in primary school, i wished to be handsome and good-looking
HAHAHHA!
i know, vain & silly huh
but it hasn't come true
i think im just average looking, though .

my sister taught me this method of wishing.
what's needed is a bus fare ticket
hahah!
yes, the bus fare ticket
which you get after using coins to pay for the fare.

1st : look at only the four-digit number on the top right hand of the ticket .

2nd : find the sum of all the digits .
if it adds up to 21 or more,
then a wish can be made.

3rd : close your eyes and wish,
& make sure it comes from deep down your heart .

4th : tear the strip or paper into tiny bits .
hold on to them with one hand.

5th : blow it at an open space
and wait for the wish to come true .

til then, just keep on believing .

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performance tomorrow
at vivo city
the time would be around 5, i guess
the confirmed list of people coming down to support i have so far is
deon, zeke and elena
hah
oh my, its kinda embarassing i think.
confirm they keep laughing at me!
but who cares,
its the experience that i get from it that matters.
(:

oh btw, i dont really have friends involved in the performance
hais, maybe its the only performance im going to experience
w/o pictures to remind me of it
):
sigh..
but i'll try to take lah,
see how .

good night now ,

sleep tight,
dont let the bedbugs bite .

like they did to me -.-