went to jp2 for the secone time the other day
& this time, it was with my family
didnt really feel like a close family anymore actually.

my mum and dad would sit on the seat at the bus stop,
chatting about who-knows-what
and my brother and sister would be at one side of the bus stop
and i would be at the other

my parents would walk side by side
my siblings too
i would be either at the back,
front or middle
either way it doesnt matter.

i walked alone.

i tried to walk beside my brother
and a passerby suddenly came rushing towards me
i had to move nearer to my brother to make way for him
little did i know he said that i was annoying
and was trying to squeeze in with him and my sister
????
sigh

i then went behind the rest
and had nothing but these eyes
which i wished could just capture moments like a camera could
like shaffiqa dreamed off
and also contact lens which she imagined could just work like a camera
( eh shaffiqa. you're featured too hah)

so yea.
why did my parents stop at three children.
can i have a younger sibling?
one that i can actually talk to if im facing any problems?
then i wouldn't have caused anyone else the trouble of listening to my whinings.

no,
maybe i should ask this way
why was i even born anyways
and just add the burden to the family
to the people around me

there'd be one less noisy dude
one less annoying guy

one less who would cause harm and hurt to the world
one less who would cause troubles, problems, conflicts

wouldn't there be more happiness and merry?

okay hafiz stop it

why am i getting emo shit suddenly
haha lame pork!
silly goose.
stupid babboon.


okay.

end of post.




oh btw
what a sad lonely christmas it was this year.
they wished me a merry christmas
but it didnt seem to be merry at all ..