ALHZ

Sunday, October 5, 2008 11:57 PM

first is was zane.
but ive been trying to adapt
to the grief he left me.
& now goes deon.

am i really that meaningless.
nobody just wants me.
one by one.
i see them walk away.
just who is next

up the aisle.

there goes zane.
there goes deon.

yes, im a peevish little brat.
easily annoyed by things.
nobody likes me,

nor my attitude ,

they say.

im self-centred.
im not the least caring.
everyone is noone
except for me.

just can i leave
and take the burden along.
but i just dont know how
& i simply cant bear.

its all faults
they see in me.

the cause for troubles& problems
all seem to come back to me.
its me and noone else
but me

i caused all the troubles.
i caused all the pain and pathoes.
i caused all the hatred that befell on me.
i brought it all upon myself.

just what is happening,
everyine is falling apart.
one by one
& piece by piece.
the puzzle set doesnt look
like its meant to be.

im such a fuck.
FUCK, i say.

people comment,
people leave.
yet i still havent change.

why should i even
count those steps as they walked away?
who am i to wait.
i dont deserve whatever they have done.
who would ever even look back,
and not in anger.

im a sore in the eyes.

im done here,
i think

hafiz ZHOU(chien) jia fei.