i know
yes, i am aware fully

i truly am the main reason for all this

i am the cause of the state that we're in now

i am the one to blame for the random times every one of you look back,
to reminisce and miss the times we all had
and wish
that things could have stayed as it were

you must have blamed me already
its really fine.
who else can you blame it on anyway?
i blame myself too.

i was just like any other average-life boy
but it wasnt bad at all,
if not for these people

i can't deny being afraid of coming into a new environment
and new faces.


i at first only had gwen and fiona
these two girls were two of those that can really make everyday
seem so so special



these two girls never fail to bring laughter
with their antics and words

we called ourselves PIONEER POWER!
hahha
lame, but we loved it

than slowly i met deon and through him,
elena and zeke
and through me, they got to know fiona and gwen.
so deon and i introduced all of us to each other,
well that was easy.
all of us were open people.

i was very close to deon
and and spoke alot about my two favourite girls during that period
i cant help loving them and speak non-stop about them

oh oh, i matchmade deon and gwen tgt!
HAHAHAH
wtf


deon's been a great guy
he's a crazy guy now, being all so enthusiastic.

i can almost not remember that he wasnt as enthu
in doing things we asked him to.

he was a rather 'keep-in' boy.
open he might be, but he doesnt go all out for the fun of it haha.
he does now.


elena was rather close to me too, one period in time
i rmb the pencil box incident most.
the funniest thing that happened to me, and a new friend.

it was our first day of school
she sat behind me
free periods of course, first day.
just a get to know thingy for our class.

oh and btw, the 6 of us (3from pioneer & 3 from shuqun)
were all in the same class
the best class we've been in!
1b! and also 2b !


moving back,
i turned back and was talking to her.
(oh, i rmb her ah-ma specs haha)

i was wearing a black jacket.
her pencil box was black.
i rested my arm on her pencil box.
she wanted to take her big pencil box to hug it
and accidentally took my arm instead,
cos my jacket was the same colour as her pencil box.
i was shocked.
we started laughing hysterically.

lucky nv hug my arm.
HAHAH


and zeke,
i didnt start out that close w him.
he was a very quiet boy.
never really initiate conversations.
but i still liked him being w us too, really.

and oh,
well,
i was a very temperamental boy during those days.
):
i dont even like talking about it.
very very temperamental and petty
sheesh
okay enough. haha

and zeke and deon didnt really like me much at first
):

i only knew that ard end of sec 3
way long after that HAHA
glad ive changed, thats what they say
im not trying to self-praise here HAHA

it really felt nice hanging around w these 6 people
click 5 clique 6
it felt like a family
there was love
there was comfort
there was happiness

but families can break, can't it..

i still love clique 6.
and i know they do too.

can we still hang out someday?
someday before we all graduate?

at least a farewell thing?